I used to think
I used to think, that there always is an answer
that growth can always happen
that hope if ever near.
Until that day,When
lifewas all upended
When death came unexpected
and shattered one held dear.
I used to think, I could ride within the whirlwind
find the songs inside me
that turned chaos into rhythm.
Until that day when
the only thing that mattered
Was letting go ofknowing.
And accept not knowing why.
The one Iām becoming is no longer buoyant
No longer fearless, no longer strong
Certain this heart, thrown deep into grieving.
Struggles to find, where love belongs.
So here we are now,
the ones who go on living
In the sunshine with our sorrow
Hoping peace may come
And here we arenow
accepting the loss of
One we loved dearly
Who left us far too early
As we greet another sun.