I used to think

I used to think, that there always is an answer

that growth can always happen

that hope if ever near.

Until that day,When

lifewas all upended

When death came unexpected

and shattered one held dear.

I used to think, I could ride within the whirlwind

find the songs inside me

that turned chaos into rhythm.

Until that day when

the only thing that mattered

Was letting go ofknowing.

And accept not knowing why.

The one I’m becoming is no longer buoyant

No longer fearless, no longer strong

Certain this heart, thrown deep into grieving.

Struggles to find, where love belongs.

So here we are now,

the ones who go on living

In the sunshine with our sorrow

Hoping peace may come

And here we arenow

accepting the loss of

One we loved dearly

Who left us far too early

As we greet another sun.